5 Sept 2016

TEACHERS' DAY

On this day, I would like to do two opposite things: one, humbly pay tribute to all my teachers, right from my parents and grandparents, my teachers from early school years to the ones who taught me at university. A large part of what I am intellectually, politically and also as a human being is because of all my teachers. 
Two, more importantly, I would like to acknowledge the immense contribution of the early audience of my performances as a teacher - my classmates at school (KV BEML), who sat (or seemed to) with delight and encouraged me to perform . They suggested without saying it, that I would do well as a teacher and I joined RIE, Mysore, for a teaching degree.
When I did 'practice teaching' at Basel Mission school at Dharwad, the students sat with admiration... This too egged me on to surely take up teaching as a profession.
When I joined Sawan Public School, my first full-time teaching job, my dear colleagues were good role models for me, and my very dear students showed me the power of being a caring and loving teacher. The respect they still shower on me is without parallels in my life. I am most grateful to them for that.
When I joined DPS-Doha after that, my amazing students, apart from enjoying the informality I shared with them, showed me how rewarding it was to respect students as thinking individuals themselves, in a very Paulo Freirean way. The ideas of knowledge co-construction (Vygotskian perspectives) took seed in my mind here... Thanks to all of the amazing students I had there, some of who still remain active in discussions with me on diverse matters...
I carry the cumulative sum of all these micro-learning experiences in my heart and mind as a teacher at SSNCE now, and I still continue to learn from my students. A big collective thank you to all my students for the growth they showed, making me a proud teacher in reflected glory, and more importantly, for helping me grow as a teaching professional. Much love to all of u... I am a lucky teacher.
Disclaimer: By no means am I suggesting that I have reached the pinnacle of learning, as a teaching professional. Hardly... If I'm better today than in 1999, when I set out teaching, I owe a large part of this to my students. That's what I imply here. Cheers...!

4 Aug 2016

Un-othering

An amazing incident happened yesterday. I was riding a scooter in a lane near home, and I stopped at a turn when a child was playing in the middle of the road as his father was walking beside him. Seeing me on the scooter, his father caught hold of the child with a jerk and moved him to a side of the lane. He then said to me in a genuine apologetic tone, "I am sorry!"
I said to him in an accommodating, non-condescending way, "Please don't say sorry to me. This (the street) is as much his as it is mine..." The father was amazed, and probably rightly so. 
We live in a world filled increasingly with the idea of ownership. 'My', 'mine', 'myself' are the watchwords. We are all the time trying to prove to others or even to ourselves sometimes, that we are better than the others... The road is created for our convenience, the vehicles are there for our use, the vendors exist to sell wares to us. We are at the centre of our universes...
I, like all of us, need to reflect on this tendency of ours, and realize and remember, that we exist among others. We would be nothing without the others. As Bakhtin would probably say, my identity belongs to all - what I am is determined by what I am to others...
PS: I am glad I spontaneously said those words to the child's father... I want to be like that more and more! I hope I can...

Are we merely the sum of our parts?

At a time when we arrogate ourselves into believing that we are unitary beings and we are so full of ourselves and our abilities..., the 2013 film The Ship of Theseus, which I revisited now, makes us think about a few very basic questions:
- Who are you? Are you the sum of your various body parts?
- Can you really think you are an independent entity or are you truly a knot in the 'web of life'?
- Does someone else's organ in you (eyes for example) change every thing about you? Are you now the very same person? Are you somehow more plural now?
I quote the insightful opening lines of the film:
"As the planks of Theseus' ship needed repair, it was replaced part by part, up to a point where not a single part from the original ship remained in it, any more. Is it then, still the same ship?
If all the discarded parts were used to build another ship, which of the two, if either, is the real ship of Theseus?"
Simply brilliant, the message of the film, in terms of the questions it raises. The shots, the music and the sounds in the background... (Y)
So much more relevant in the context of Organ Donation day/week being organized, and in the situated memory of my dear younger brother we lost a few years ago, a few days before a kidney transplant procedure was due on him, on an otherwise-ordinary August (09/08) morning. Today (04/08) is his death anniversary as per the lunar calendar. My Achan and Amma are performing a ritual at their spiritual centre in the hope that his soul is at peace!

2 Aug 2016

02 August

This day
Six years ago, having taught in schools for eleven years,
I entered a classroom
Again as a student, prone and vulnerable
And felt out of place
With a group of twittering, giggling girls and boys,
Almost
Like an artifact from some paleolithic age.
I quickly adapted myself, as I remembered
With fondness my friend at college - Joseph Leo
Who, had quit the Novitiate and was older than us,
Full of the elusive elixir of life, trying to mingle with
A bunch of 17-year olds fresh from school.

Now
As I teach 17-year olds fresh from school,
they remind me of 02 August, when
I had gone back to a 'Novitiate' myself to
Unlearn some, relearn some and somehow learn much
About the intuitive art and the calculated science of teaching.
The powerlessness of a student occupies the foreground
Of my mindscape every time I now enter the classroom
Filled with eager, restless, bubbly boys and girls...
More power to them for enRICHing my life!

27 Jul 2016

Awe

Awe
Is what I felt as a lanky, starry-eyed teenager
For a much talked-about senior with her very formidable self.

Awe
Is what I feel still, for your very rare kind of far-sightedness
For your rigour to the minutest detail
For your tireless, infectious bounce in the step
For efforts you put for what's weeks or even months away

Oh
How with pain you must writhe watching this quintessential creature of the nth hour!
Oh
How your heart must pound seeing this 11:59:59 man!
Oh
How your nerves must agitate looking at him spring into action but ever, only in the nick of time!

Or
Do you too somehow feel some awe? An awful awe for this Artful Dodgerian penchant for the here and now?

Marriages
Are not made in any imaginary heaven. They take sweat and toil and hours and hours and hours of dogged determination. Yes!

But
What I saw in you, and you in me, all those years and years ago, must have been certain human traits that we never had but each held much in awe...

You, chalk: firm, full of resolve, proper and prim.
I, cheese: floppy, maverick, happy-go-lucky, not trim.

You: earthy and grounded
I: breezy and starry-eyed

Even today, when waves of loneliness, storms of emotions, flashes of anger and roars of anxiety hit me, I simply close my eyes and the very imagined sight of you calms my nerves, and I am back to my tranquil self...

Awe
Is what I must feel for the happy fact that you picked the college to join and I followed you in this very choice.

Oh
How blissful that we have both spent now, many many years WITH each other than without...!

PS: Happy birthday Shantha, and thanks for growing up with me!

My fav pic of my fav woman

15 Jul 2016

The raging fire


This fire called life...
Yes, it did keep me warm on cold, lonely nights
Its glow presenting to me such delight,
And indeed I yearned for it often times,
And I wouldn't know what I would do
But for its familiar paternal presence...
But,
I just got so precariously close
that I could have singed in the flames,
or the alluring blue and yellow dancers
Could have devoured me, my idea of me.
I recoiled just in time, in the nick of time...

How strange that the very life-giving fire
Can engulf you in a deathly embrace!

21 Jun 2015

Crow Eggs vs Pizza

How often do you see a satire on class-divisions firmly focused on the tragedy of the underbelly being left out of the success story of LPG (Liberalization, privatization and globalization) and still break into laughter every now and then even as you have a lingering sense of pathos tingling in your belly? ‘Kaaka Muttai’ manages to do just that, and how!
The film begins with the unapologetic and nonchalant portrayal of the shock elements of life in a busy slum near Saidapet, Chennai, whose life-as-usual is unimaginable for the Cineplex-hungry appetite of the typical urban audience – a kid urinating in his sleep prevents the liquid downpour from reaching his grandmother’s skin just in time, by using the t-shirt he had been wearing, which, wet, gets promptly hidden in a kitchen utensil kept nearby. Scene after scene, the director drives home painful realities into the consciousness of the viewer without crying hoarse or going overboard about it. Young kids ingenuously steal crow eggs to supplement nutrition needs even as they 'helpfully' leave one of the three eggs for the poor crow... Realities the 24x7 media frenzy doesn’t care to cover as newsworthy, leaving us in shall we say, a truth shadow (like a rain shadow).
And what do you expect these 'ah-so-poor, downtrodden' to do when they earn extra money through back-breaking effort or get brand new Levi’s clothes through rare ingenuity (bartered for pani-puri with spoilt kids)? To unduly value it and spend it wisely? Nah, the boys have a distinct disdain for hoarding. Once the purpose is reached (or lost), they just treat things or money as another thing... Money that is so carefully earned for pizza is simply handed over to the local goon who demands more money than their mother can afford, for the grandmother’s funeral. The branded clothes are promptly washed under the foot as other clothes would have!
For a debutant, Manikandan does a great job in meticulously paying attention to detail, and never letting the audience feel let down. The film is 109 minutes of ‘poignant fun’ – the kind of fun that makes you laugh even as you feel guilty that you are participants in a world that is so unjustifiably unequal, a world where beneath the veneer of glitz and glamour is infinite selfishness and greed. The owner of the pizza shop transforms into a messiah who offers the kids free pizza for life, when cameras are rolling and the world is watching. Do we need greater proof of hypocrisy, we are made to wonder.
The music blends beautifully into the film and Manikandan doesn’t let it take over the film. The background score has a certain freshness that is relevant to the scenes – flippant on the surface but deep and intense. The art director has also done a great job - creating a set around an actual slum and making things seamless. Hats off to the screenplay and the script-writing for being taut and intense. Cinematography is great too. The mundane is made to look miraculous, and the wide angles and the close-up shots orchestrate to create a reality that we suddenly realise is a film at a forced interval and again only when the film ends.
But if the film stands out as extraordinary, a large part of the credit should go to two things. Firstly, it is the characterization of the film. A dozen small characters neatly enter and join the kaleidoscope to add brilliance and a certain fullness to the plot.  Secondly, it is outstanding acting, especially that of the two boys, their mother, grandmother and their railways friend. The boys have a certain casualness about them that doesn’t seem forced at all. Which young boy can you get to simply remain innocuous with a camera rolling right next to his face? The younger of the boys – Ramesh has a twinkle in his eye that is innocence personified. And even if he’s slapped by his brother, the reaction is not of anger but surprise. The bond of the two brothers and the love they share with their mother and grandmother (Aaya) is heart-warming. No ill-feelings, no jealousy, no questions about why to share. The only discordant note as far as kinship is concerned is when the elder boy says he wants a mobile (or is it pizza?) and not his father out of jail. If there are two eggs to be eaten, one goes to either – no questions asked. If there is one dosa (pseudo-pizza) or pizza to be eaten, it is to be shared – no territoriality or possessiveness in sight. Iyshwarya as the mother is brilliant. To take up such a non-glamorous role is a challenge in the film industry. The grandmother endears us to herself and puts the priorities of life in perspective for her daughter-in-law. The family is a unit – no saas-bahu stuff here, as if that is a middle-class preoccupation.
Everyone who wields power - politicians, the media, businesspersons - stands exposed, and the section of society that is kept at the margins is shown to be humane, the ideal that each one of us should be. The pizza becomes a metaphor for the haves and ‘kaaka muttai’ (crow eggs) for the have-nots. Why is the former sought after and the latter scorned at? The boys drive a point home when at last they eat the much-sought-after slice of pizza, and then exclaim that the aaya’s dosa had tasted better. The ad-driven world we run after crumbles as hollow make-believe. Could the disgusting-looking indigenous be better than the inevitable-looking import?

The film ‘Kaaka Muttai’ troubles you with more than a few questions about the world we live in.